Recently, I've been having quite a few of those days where I just wallow in my bed, self loathing. Pitying myself as I don't have a full-time job, or I'm not getting 1sts in my assignments, and I haven't applied for a Grad Scheme. I also lie there feeling sorry for myself because I haven't got the latest Fiat 500 or a dog or a size 8 body. Then, to make it even worse, I scroll through instagram & wonder 'why haven't I got that cool tattoo?', 'why haven't I got my own flat?', 'why aren't my eyebrows like that?' and 'I wish I had enough money to do that Urban Outfitters Haul'. Of course, my Mac De Marco playing in the background just adds to the emotions flying around in my head.
But, then I sit there and think; why the hell am I moaning. I have an amazing family, a great bunch of friends, a lovely warm house (rent free and lots of food may I add) and quite a good figure for someone who eats as much as I do. I also have a car, which I'm so lucky to have as some people don't have that luxury. I also am able to spend my spare dollar in Primark, and able to have at least one tattoo. I am getting 2:1's at uni, and I'm earning a comfortable amount with the job I'm doing. So really, I should stop being a moany biatch and get out of my self-loathing pit.
It was after this realisation, that I came across the 52 weeks of gratitude challenge. I first read about this challenge on Rebecca's blog, & again on Becky's blog (clearly, Rebecca's are the best, yes?). As I suffer with mental health issues, I really do struggle to practice gratitude, but I really hope this challenge will change that.
I really do think positivity is the key to happiness. You should really be grateful for anything that you have, as today might be your last day on this earth. Yesterday is gone, and tomorrow may never come. Harsh reality, but it's true. Gratitude is: the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness. I really want this year to be about all of those things. I'm feeling much more positive, and I believe this challenge will show you guys that. It might even make you guys jump on the bandwagon and we'll be a happy, positive and thankful community, wouldn't that be nice eh?
What do you guys think? Will you be joining me?